I don't know what to say. I still have a great deal of love for you, that much is certain--but I'm unsure of how you feel.





I wish I could see you again. I wish I could look into your eyes.





I regret not knowing the circumstances of your life then...terrible...the things I said at the time...so unfair to you. And for this, I fail--fail to have words to express my regret--compounding the difficulties of your life then...and thinking mostly of myself, I fear. You were going through a great deal yourself, and I had no idea.






You inspired me more than anyone I've ever known. And you truly changed my life.





I don't know whether you are with someone else. It seems like a very strong possibility--and I don't want to complicate your life in any way--but you have been in my thoughts constantly. And...it's as if...crazy as it sounds... your heart has been calling out to me. It's almost as if I can feel you. So strange.





Again, I ask you to reach out to me. You did the last time--and whether it was coincidence, or you read this board, I don't know.





In any case, I wish you happiness...all the happiness you deserve.